Something Real

mileyhighrus:

i could never be a politician because every time it was my turn to talk in a debate it would start off with “listen you fucking prick” like idk how these people don’t do this

People like obscure things they can relate to. No one wants to hear about YOUR life specifically. They want a feeling, an experience so they can say to themselves “I’m not alone” without actually having to get to know you, while still being alone.

sometimes you just need to lay on the floor

Sometimes you trip and fall and just decide to stay there

(Source: ostracizedpoodle)

And so I think my panic attacks are over. Not sure panic attacks is the right word for it, just hours of being unable to breathe and uncontrollable sobbing and then couple that with brief moments of numbness where I wasn’t sure anything was real, yea that’s what I had. I haven’t had one in a couple months. They usually came when I was alone and something triggered me. But I’m alone and triggered and I’m okay. :) I actually feel really good… Just finished my registration for college and I feel like I have a purpose and a drive inside myself separate from everyone else. I got through those nights without anyone by my side, panic attacks i wouldnt tell my boyfriend about and no friends. and didn’t relapse once (though i dont chance the sharp objects) I’m kinda proud. It’s my life :) I control how I feel :) I feel pretty damned good right now. I feel alive.